DO YOU EVEN KNOW ME!!!!!

Bug me, kill me

Damn hang me for being different

It my choice, can't you accept it

Instead of judge it

I don't act like this for attention

I don't dress like this to be treated like

I am something I'm, not
Have you known me for long

Do you know who I really am

My clothes are my flag

It tells you I've been through allot

Do you stop to notice

If I am alright

Have you ever looked into my eyes 

and seen me fight my tears

Just because you said something mean
Have you noticed I laugh it off

But behind my door I cry

I scream 

HELP ME!

Nobody notices me 

Nobody cares that I am hurting

Nobody see's it

My heart on the inside

My nightmares that continue to haunt me

Have you ever stopped to look

At ME

You really never noticed have you

Or have you ever really cared

I am a servant of darkness

I close my eye's and they are there

The shadows that have come

To rip out my heart

I failed

I did not keep my promise

I let a human's words capture

Me

And in the end they were all lies

A fool I am

Black and white, is my world

What is fake, what is real

I wonder now

because I am lost inside the lie

I was to stupid to believe

His words seemed like magic to me

Like a prince on a white horse that

has banished all my demon's but in the end

he was a demon

Who ate my heart

I lie awake in the sunlight, but it won't burn me

Because the sun is only fake

I'm in the shadows all alone again

I forgive him but I must forget

The lies

The pain

I am a fool who falls for kindness

I am to tainted

To find a truthful person who will

Accept me for who I am

I shall take my pain

And walk through the door of darkness

Let them rip my heart out and leave me bleeding

As I am ready to die

I have already forgotten the outstretch hand

That pulled me out of the water

I was drowning in

I am back in the lake

Of my sorrow where I will stay

When the next hand comes I will not take it

I will ignore it and go deeper 

Inside of the water

Till I can't breath anymore

Because all that outstretched hands do 

Is laugh at your pain

And leave you with more

I am alright now

Don't worry 

I have found my light

In the darkness

Goodbye world for I have found my 

Peace

When you see me in the light 

I do not feel the light

For I am a servant of darkness

That is a shadow 

Who has fulfilled her promise

To never believe a humans

Words again. 

Foolishness and lies!!!

A fool I am, to believe

In the words he told me

They were sweet and nice

They made me happy

But now i know the truth

It was all lies, everything that

happen, it was a joke

He came up with

I fell in the trap and now i pay the price

The words he said the hatred he feels

Toward me the whole time

Was the thing that killed me

He never loved me

He never cared

He told me lies and used my weakness

I believed in a fairy tale

Princes on white horses don't exist

I cry alone, but the pain wont leave

I trust him but I pay the price

I can live on but the drowning feeling

Remains

A game of love is what I had

I am hated by him and the world

I want him but he never was mine

I am stupid and dumb

I give up

I can't be lied to again

I can't like anyone again

I can't feel pain again

I have lost the war

I have died in battle

WHY?! WHAT'S THE POINT?!

 What is the point of living

Of breathing 

When nothing is what you wanted

To be forced into everything

Blinded by the words

YOU CAN'T

There is no air to breath

There is no grass to walk on

Nothing belongs to you

It wasn't yours to begin with

Why can't we want love

Why can't we need acceptance

Why can't we love pain

Is it wrong

Why do people leave and not stay

When you say what you feel

Why can't they accept

Who you are

Love should be like death

If you break it, you should die

To never be able to live without them

But why cannot we reach it

The one's who are different

We are sad because we have been cornered

We are angry because we are trapped

We are empty because they took our choices

We are depressed because we have nothing

Does it satisfy you to watch us

Bleed by our own hands

To make us so afraid to live

Because you didn't live your life

We have nothing now

We are afraid

We are crying

All we wanted was someone to hold us

And tell us to stop

Hurting ourselves, Wanting death

But nobody does

They encourage us to do it

Because we don't belong 

Anywhere

PLEASE STOP THIS

WE NEED 

WE WANT

WE CRY 

WE FEEL

WE MAY NOT SHOW IT BUT 

THAT DOESN'T MEAN WE ARE EMPTY

A bird in a cage cannot fly

The bird in the cage cannot fly free

It can only dream and look out the window

Does the owner ever let them out

Can a caged bird only sing

Only wish for a small moment of freedom

Does anyone hear it cry

Why are we caged

Why cannot we be free

Did we do something wrong

Is this our punishment

To be caged like birds

Because we dream or want

To crave and need

Is it wrong

To want something more 

Than the cage we live in

The same steal bars with no escape

The same window with no opening

The voices telling us we can't

Is that what we are for

To be told we can't

Is it okay to be told we are not good enough

That we haven't got a place

No matter how hard we try

Because we are different

A caged bird Cannot fly

A Angel cannot fly either with broken wings

My wings are black and broken

Chained to the ground inside a cage

I cannot fly

With broken wings

It the end of me 

These Feelings

My heart pounds in my chest

Like a firecracker about to go off

What to do about this feeling

Should I cut out my heart

I don't need this feeling

It's meaningless, only to fail

I am going to throw it in the river to drown

to never feel again

I don't understand why we must

Allow feelings to take over our lives

Why can't we just be empty

To walk life like the dead

These feelings only cause me pain

Unbearable and uncontrollable pain

Like I'm loosing myself

I never want to become lost again

But I don't want to loose the feeling

I might want to fall again.

Can I or Can I not 

The Dream, Cannot be achieved

The dream I have 

Like an unforgettable memory

Haunting me like a ghost

It follow's me

And makes me relive the moments

I have lost

But the dream of happiness

Cannot be achieved

The dream to not think

To not feel

To see nothing but skies all blue

To have nothing 

But freedom

To have clean white wings

And soar in the sky

A beautiful melody filling your soul

But to have it ripped from you

Like your black wings bleeding on the earth

Chained to the ground

 by the evil within

Skin full of dirt and sin

With a frozen and empty heart

I don't deserve the angels dream

With that

I'll never take flight

Open the cage and let me fly

The air in the sky so sweet so clear

I want to fly in it

But it's way out of my reach

I feel the air, but only feel cold

I taste the warmth, but am frozen

I see my escape, but i'm bound by chains.

Why can't i fly in the air

Spread my wings and be free

Where is the knife to cut my chains

My pain and all my darkness

 How can I clean my skin

Wash away the dirt

I hate it the emptiness I feel

I hate this cage so small 

It's my prison,with not key to unlock
The burden I must carry

Can you free me

Can someone open the cage

and let me out 

to soar in the bright blue sky 

That I dream to reach