My Unique Knight

No matter how much it hurts 
Knowing you walked away and left
Leaving your promises on your fingertips
Shattered like the heart inside my chest

The tear are never enough to show my pain 
The sleepless night as I wish for your embrace
The moments I wish to be consumed by darkness
But Know it would never bring you back
You caused me pain, But I forgive you 
Even though you said it was okay for me not to
But my love for you will never fade, its stuck to me like glue
Even if I date many, nobody can compare to you

Your love was unique and special, like the
Sunrise in the morning, ever colour describing something
Different, like a new chapter to a great book

Nothing could make me hate you, no matter if you left
I'll spend my life wishing for you, but I'll never hold regret
The moments shared with you are my treasures
That I could describe so easily

You were my knight in shining armour, that will never change
Even if our life goings on and you forget
My love for you will always be strong
No man's love could ever be the same

So I bid you farewell on your journey
And I'm sorry I was not the one
But I will say, you'll always be my only

My unique knight, I will alway love you 

Finally

A cold dark emptiness, nothing inside

You can't be saved, from the horrible pain

Of loosing your mind in hatred

Not knowing what to think any more

Tears forming a small lake
So dark, So empty
Like the very pits of my soul
Darkness is who I am

The voices, They are my friends
The nightmares are my wishes
I can't wait to accept it
And die In peace

No more love
No more tears
No more Pain
Just silence

The world is just a pit of emptiness
Waiting slowly to swallow me up
Take me over and end my life
The darkness of life hates me

I am one with darkness
I don't feel it any more
No useless pity of emotion
I'm finally hollow now

I GIVE IN

I can't , It's too much

It hurts, My heart keeps breaking

Why? What's wrong with me

My life it's empty

Promises that are always broken

Wishes that never come true

Love that always ends

To much

To much pain

My mind is slowly slipping

My heart already gave up

The voices in my head

They just keep getting

Louder

I'm just broken, slowly slipping away

What is reality

I'm scared, I'm alone

I can't keep hurting

The images in my head

Slowly getting brighter

Making me weaker and sad

I want to end it all

Suicide can I do it

Can I finally embrace the darkness

Will it work,  will I finally die

Will I stop hurting

Will the voices stop

Will the nightmares go away

Will all my pain just disappear

I can't no more there's nothing left

I have NOTHING

I am a NOBODY

I can't be LOVED

I can't keep HURTING 

I give UP!

I'm sorry for ever thinking that

Me 

Could ever be happy

It doesn't exist

I give in

This Is The End

The dark Chilly morning as I realise again

Your gone from my site, gone from my heart

Like a emptiness that cannot be replaced

You walked away from me

Tears fall from my eyes

Wet and sticky tears like the blood

In my nightmares, I cannot breath

I scream your name over and over

Praying on my knees you'll answer

But silence is what I receive

I deafening eternity 

Buckets and buckets of water slowly

Fill in the tub, burning hot

Scorching my flesh making me scream in agony

As I sit inside the water 

I cry again and scream

I take the razer of hope, the only way 

For you to hear me, I lay it on my wrists

And watch the water turn red

My skin burns from contact 

But the pain feels amazing

He's not coming back The voices whisper

He doesn't love you any more They yell

Your weak... SHUT UP!

A looser....BE QUITE!

He hates you...NO!

He can't stand you....PLEASE SHUT UP

A burden......I CAN'T!

He'll never love you again....IT'S OVER!

Louder and louder, They pound in my head

Spinning and spinning,  My mind turns to goo

My blood is spilling there's nothing I can do

The world seems empty as My heart slowly beets

I lie back in the water and closed my eyes to peace

I will not continue living without Him by my side

So goodbye My dear world

For I'm Sorry

This is the end  

The Village

Bright and Pleasant like a first bloomed flower

Soft and Delicate like a newborn infant

Like being in a world where

Beauty is everywhere

In this place there's love and happiness

Where evil is repelled and banished 

Where nothing is allowed to ruin

The perfect harmony

A girl didn't like the fake lies

As her nightmares continued to come

Her parents treated her like a monster

The town refused to accept her existence

She left and wandered in the darkness of

The forest

Where the grass grew large and green

But were everything wasn't perfect

But was equal with good and bad

She smiled and laughed but cried for 

The first time

Her heart mind shocked and her heart satisfied

She grew old and told her children

The story of her village

Were she was banished for being different

A place with no pain, But nothing to learn

As she lied on her death bed, happy and satisfied

She looked to the stars and made a wish

She said "Star show the village the true meaning of life" 

And she closed her eyes as tears gently fell

The village changed that night

Because of that little girl

Nothing But Time

Like a salt morning breeze drifting 

Through my hair, As I look up to the damped sky

The clouds so tense with water

Waiting to let loose and fall

Like my tears

From my eyes 

Who am I,  Where do I belong

Why can't I move on from this pain inside my heart

Remembering every moment of a beautiful song

That's deep inside my skin

Driving me mad 

I lost the treasure I thought was mine

But forget to remember that I was the fool

It tricked me to believe

It love me and wanted me

But truly in wanted to hurt me and make me feel pain

The water that fall from my eyes

Stains my cheeks like the rain on a stormy day

I lost everything I had,  Loving that soul

I am nobody, But wise enough to go one

Loving that soul

My heart is closed to everyone

But cannot close to him

For I can still feel him

Like yesterday's embrace

My mind slowly slips from reality

As I'm driven mad into insanity

Soon nothing will save me

From staining my writs in blood

Wishing to erase the touch

Of that love

For one day I will lie cold

Inside a dark hole, deep in the ground

Far away from light

Still loving a man, Who ran away from my heart

Me a women bound to darkness

Light shall never shine on me again

Love it stopped like time for me

Nothing exists for me

For I am nothing But a Myth of time

Beautiful Treasure

To you it's a memory

To me It's a treasure, I do not want to loose

It helps me breath

It's makes me weak

When I know I might loose it

The fear of it melting in my hand

The scary scene in my brain

Filled with blood and horror

As that is my imagination

For you are here

Your heart is mine, As mine is yours

We both should treasure

Both hopes and dreams

Even the burdens that can't be fixed

I have carried all

Willing to carry more

My body and soul

Was made for you, Was yours to begin with

I cannot say no, All I want is yes

So my beautiful treasure do not leave

Do not melt inside my hands

Hold tight in my grasp

And stay forever

Because We are meant for each Other

For Beautiful Treasure
I fear the worst, I fear the end of us both
I see the coffins lined in a row
And the sweet smell of roses
On top of our chest's

Tears trickle down our pale faces
For I am Alive and You but a ghost
My hand as frail as bones
My body as thin as a skeleton

For beautiful treasure
Without you I cannot sleep
I cannot eat, I cannot breath
Another piece of air
If you are not in the world with me

My Beautiful Treasure
I love so Much
Promise me you wont go
Promise me your love
I cannot handle another painful Memory
Beautiful Treasure

Stay mine Forever