Fear, That man

I'm not okay

I finally admit to it

I cannot sleep at night with

Waking in tears and sweat

Fear written on my face

Is he there inside my room

Ready to take advantage

Of me once again

To make me fear the darkness

Even more

Realization as he is not there

He cannot hurt me anymore

But fear has overwhelmed me 

taken me hostage

I don't know what to do anymore 

So I slide the blade carefully

over my wrist and watch the blood slowly

bubbly before sliding down my 

Arm dripping 

Red like hell

Pain and fear

Is all I feel when memories

Take over my mind

He is the source of my 

Suffering

The reason I continue to 

Die slowly inside

Freedom come with a price

But I will not give it

I will not give the one thing I treasure

To the man I fear the most

I will continue to suffer

At the hands of the memories

Even tho he's no where near me

The fear is tatoo'd to my skin

Like a reminder

I will never be loved

Nobody will ever care

I am alone

I am weak

I am a looser

So let me die already

Because I do not belong in this world

Because the fear of that

Man