Why do u try when i can't ever understand

At first you smile and laugh
You say you love me
Then you yell and tell me painful words
but hug me when it's over
because you regret your words

Why can't you understand that
all the words you say grab me
Like a thick smoke

It chokes me and I can't breath
Then hands grab me dragging me
down were I hear the words echo

They tear my skin apart and I feel my blood
flow I begin  to hate myself

But I can never find myself beyond the evil
words
Why do you say I'm beautiful when I know I'm ugly
Why do u love me when I can't love you
I want to understand but I'm so lost in the words
My heart has finally died inside

I'm scared to love but I crave it so bad but
With these words and promises I'll die before it happens

The black smoke follows me where I go and I can
escape those black hands and the repeating words
I am truly alone

All i do is suffer

I just want to scream the truth
I want them to see my pain and I can't take it
I want them to help me

I don't want to be afraid
Of the faces around me
I can't stop screaming for help
Crying for the pain and regret it leaves me

I want it to be over I'm tired of being afraid
Of The darkness behind the corner
Killing myself slowly inside just to be comfortable

I want to die and be happy
To be able to smile the truth
To be able to love someone and trust them

But I'm scared
SOOO SCARED

I'm crying and shaking in a corner inside
of me I'm alone in the darkness nobody can
save me

Why do I have to suffer!

The things life brings

The silent whisper

Of darkness wanting in

The light that

slowly fades into a distant mist

The Empty cries of pain

somewhere in the Aybiss

The never ending

suffering of blood flowing through our vains

The feeling of being a burden

To feel hated by the ones you need

acceptence by

The stares that could damage your soul

The laughter that scares you the most

It's the life i live in now

Devil is in control

Deadly moments of hell

 

Crashing through

Earths surface

 

The screams and cries

of humens trying to escape

 

The demonds frightfull

wings flying through the sky

Captureing them

 

They completly devour their

souls and drop their bodies into

a fire pit of lava

 

The devils Laughter

Multiplies

 

And hell is even stronger

Burning fire of hell swallowing

Earth and taking over

 

Heavons gates closed from any

Angels excaping their perfect home

 

We all watch as Earth dissapers

and were the only one's left

 

Till our souls are devoured and we know

 

The devils in control

Dark and enchanted

I whisper to my deamon

 

What i plead the most

The greatest sin i do

 

I summond the darkness

and

Watch it crawl

 

Slowly forming a

man

 

His frightning voice

giving me chills

 

His enchanted wing so

Dark  and beatiful

That one touch could shatter them

 

His deadly stare watching me

and my movements

 

I ask him for one thing

"Can i die"

 

He smiles

"Your already in hell"



Past

The past it haunts

Us like a nightmare

 

We wish to change

Our mistakes

 

Take back the

REGRET

we feel

 

We cry to people,

It's our fault

 

But no matter

how much you begg

 

The past will never change

It continues to crush you

 

You feel tainted by

A dark shadow

 

It makes you Helplessly

live in the past

 

Always reliving the same

Regret you want to change

 

But no matter how much you

WANT

To break free from it

 

Your always be drowning in the past

Not Grieveing isn't a crime

The death of a person

Isn't scary

 

No need to cry

Or blam yourself

 

Laugh it off

don't grieve

 

If you spend your life

grieving over a person

 

who can't

Love you

See you

Feel you

 

A person who

Isn't alive

 

It's a corspe with

No emotion'

 

 

It's completely empty

 

Your not cold

your just moving on

and living

 

A life the dead can't