What Should I do?

Steady, Stay still and

Walk down that invisible 

Line

But i continue to fall

And fail

Loosing it all, just for something

I can't erase 

My mind, My heart

As black as the night sky

Without no stars to guide

Me 

Slowly drowning in the pain

I've gained

My tears forming a lake

Should I jump in

I'm done with all of

This

continuing with all this mud

on my skin

Eyes that seem to see through

All the mistakes I've made

Nobody wants me

When I don't even want myself

Forced to live in a world

I never belonged in

Even if I keep living

What should I do?

To keep surviving

When everything I fought for

Has come tumbling down to 

Crush me 

The weight of all the pain 

And memories

I want to forget everything

Or I'll end it all

I can't take it anymore