Loving in Pain

Is It worth it all the pain, to feel empty and sad
But not know what do with it all
The sadness that he brang and left in minutes
The tears left behind when I new he couldn't love me

The things I forgot to say
The emotions I tried to hide
The pain I gain everyday
The emotionless face I wear, to show nothing

I watch him, be with many
Change in every way
Growing every day

He will never Look at me
He will never Love me
He will never Hold me

The darkness in my heart continues to grow
As I slowly disappear,  dyeing inside and crying
But what can I do, He's moved on
He doesn't see my pain and the darkness I have gained

He will never love me even though I'll live through life
Dying inside loving a Boy who could never love me

Life, Known, Seen

What do we do with all those people who don't listen
The People who think we are stupid
That we don't know anything
About life, Love or the future

That we must abide by the rules and follow them
We do learn and we do understand most things
We do understand what love is
But how do we explain it when it can't be explain

if we could tell how we felt, would it be true NO
We have learned because we have lived and we have made mistakes
Even if people don't know what we've done

We all have a deep dark secret maybe two that we can't tell
But that doesn't mean we don't know how cruel life can be
Some of us may not have felt the same pain as others
But we've seen it happen and know better

We may be young but we ain't weak, we have learned about
Life as we lived it, we've watched it and we understand it
So why criticize us when we understand a lot more than we have told the world

We have grown without your protection, We have Known without your supervision
and we have seen without your eyes.

We Know, Understand and will over the years so why do you still worry
It's still a mystery to us

The World and Destiny

The darkness of the night embraced her light death
as she stumbled slowly toward her destiny,
Eyes stained in tears and clothes stained in blood

Why did she need this feeling of accomplishment
The feeling to be able to looking the mirror and accept yourself
To feel wanted by all those shadows that told you otherwise
To fill that void in our hearts

Why does the darkness rip at us
Tearing our hearts and dreams apart
releasing the pain and the envy
the emotions we try so hard to forget

The world is too cruel, it doesn't accept who we really are
It judges us for or personality, our character and our Attitude
The world thinks that we must abide  by their rules be their, puppets and do their bidding
We must wear their choices, say their wisdom and learn to be perfect

But nobody's destiny is perfect, its torn, crumbled, changed, shattered
Nobody knows who'll they'll become before they know who they are
We must keep seeking our true selves before the world destroys our destiny

Darkness devoures false truthes

The ending of time

wasted on a lying truth

wanting this thought that is,

so real it calls the darkness faster

than ever, that little hope and truth

that love can be receved and accepted.

 

But the beginning of a new dawn

is approaching and it will

bring hardships and tumbles no matter

if you advoid them, cause love isn't

a coupon, you can't but one and get it free

but you can earn it if the darknes doesn't

swallow it first

 

That glowing red light in our soul

that links us to the world

we are still empty

without the missing piece of our soul

that we share with them,

 

The darkness flies high in the night sky

whispering the dying words

then you soul is devoured along with

the love you tried to hide

 

Don't hold on to false truthes

cause the darkness an

you will be its next victim

 

 



Why do u try when i can't ever understand

At first you smile and laugh
You say you love me
Then you yell and tell me painful words
but hug me when it's over
because you regret your words

Why can't you understand that
all the words you say grab me
Like a thick smoke

It chokes me and I can't breath
Then hands grab me dragging me
down were I hear the words echo

They tear my skin apart and I feel my blood
flow I begin  to hate myself

But I can never find myself beyond the evil
words
Why do you say I'm beautiful when I know I'm ugly
Why do u love me when I can't love you
I want to understand but I'm so lost in the words
My heart has finally died inside

I'm scared to love but I crave it so bad but
With these words and promises I'll die before it happens

The black smoke follows me where I go and I can
escape those black hands and the repeating words
I am truly alone

All i do is suffer

I just want to scream the truth
I want them to see my pain and I can't take it
I want them to help me

I don't want to be afraid
Of the faces around me
I can't stop screaming for help
Crying for the pain and regret it leaves me

I want it to be over I'm tired of being afraid
Of The darkness behind the corner
Killing myself slowly inside just to be comfortable

I want to die and be happy
To be able to smile the truth
To be able to love someone and trust them

But I'm scared
SOOO SCARED

I'm crying and shaking in a corner inside
of me I'm alone in the darkness nobody can
save me

Why do I have to suffer!

The things life brings

The silent whisper

Of darkness wanting in

The light that

slowly fades into a distant mist

The Empty cries of pain

somewhere in the Aybiss

The never ending

suffering of blood flowing through our vains

The feeling of being a burden

To feel hated by the ones you need

acceptence by

The stares that could damage your soul

The laughter that scares you the most

It's the life i live in now