Can you guess Or Do you know?

Do you know the secret I hid

The one that leaves me screaming 

At night, pinned down 

By hands that lead to darkness

Dirty hands on my body

Never to be erased

Sick and twisted smile

That so many believed in

Nightmares taken over

The memories replayed 

Would they make you sick

To know what I’ve been through

To know that I’m a victim

Of something so cruel 

When I try to speak it

I can’t even breath

Threats against the ones I love

A loud yelling voice telling me

‘You belong to me’

I feel so sick when I look in the mirror

The poisonous touch tattooed 

To my skin, no matter how much

I scratch, cut and try to erase it

Forever carved into my skin

I look into the mirror

And I already know 

My past is jaded 

My heart weak 

I want to give up, I can’t do it anymore

A man in black, standing waiting

Do you know what that means

I fear him, the man in black

Like a sickening feeling

Sending me puking

Fear it’s runs through my veins

Taking over my body 

As I hide in the corner 

Pleading he’ll never return

When you look at me do 

You know what I have suffered

Do you see the pain hidden 

Behind my smile

When I flinch at loud voices 

Shake in the dark

Almost cry when cornered

Something happened but I never told

The fear of being judged

Of being laughed at 

Of being the victim that nobody sees the same

Do you see, I’m afraid

I want to come clean

But I can’t breath

I have nothing

I am nothing

You don’t know what I have suffered

You don’t know the evil I have faced

But if you did would you look at me the same or would you walk

Because I am tainted 

By something 

That you’ll never guess

Never understand

I’m something you’ll never want