Your disappointed in Useless me!!!

You look at me in disappointment for I could not follow your ways of life

You look at me in disgust for I

Felt differently toward how life is

when I speak you only listen to the

Words you desire to hear

You ignore the pain in my voice

It doesn’t exist to your ears

I close my door and hide from

Your judgmental eyes as you tell me

I need to rethink my decision

Of liking girls and guys

You tell me you accept me

But your hateful words speak otherwise

How can I keep fighting with you at my side

I come to you with tears and you kindly ask what wrong 

I tell you I have depression

You yell at me and say I’m wrong

You tell me this is a faze I forgot that

Down the road, Ill become successful and have a husband and not be on my own

But my demons tell me to

Cry and scream and holler

But nobody will hear me plead

They say I’m alone

And my mommy will not save me

They tell me she hates me and

Judges me behind closed doors

I know it’s true I’ve heard her hate full words

I look in the mirror and cry

For the evil little words judging

My reflection stopped giving me the confidence

The scars that build on my wrist

Prove that I must keep it all inside

Because nobody wants to hear my silent cries

So alone is what I am

Afraid is how I feel

Stupid is the world

And nobody will ever care about

Somebody as useless as me