Tuesday 31 December 2013

WHAT DO YOU KNOW!

A dark sadness that never goes away
A empty box of thing that disapeared
A forgetten memory that you can never remember
A tear that slowly stains your cheeks

Is it okay to cry all alone
In your own little wall of protection
To feel safe in the emptyness of your own thoughts
To hear the screams of your heart echo
But to be silenced by the shadows

Is it fine to have everything eaten away
to have something so important taken away
To never be the same
To be distant, forgotten or judged
Because your different

Does the pain feel good
Does the emptyness satisfy you
Does it feel good to never be remembered
Does it seem nice to be a shadow
Do you accept it

Or do you want freedom
Friends to rely on
Memories to share
Happiness to give and collect
What do you want?

Why are you sad
Why are you afraid
Why do you cry
Are these question mean

Is it scary to admit
That there are secrets many don't know
Things that make you tainted or empty
Make you different but no nobody notices
Does it hurt?

It hurts me because I know how you feel
To be forgotten
To be lost
To cry
To be afraid
To give up
To always want more but to always have nothing

Parents ignore you
or
They think they understand
or
They thing your a troubled child
Or
Going through a faze

But WE ARE DIFFERENT!

WE have been through things THEY don't UNDERSTAND
WE HAVE FELT PAIN
WE HAVE FELT FEAR
WE HAVE CRIED
WE HAVE LIED
WE HAVE PRETENDED
WE HAVE LEARNED

WHEN WILL THEY LEARN
THAT WE HAVE CHOICES
THAT WE HAVE TO MAKE

WE ARE NOT ALONE
WE KNOW THAT
BUT IT FEELS GOOD TO BE ALONE
WE NEED THE LONELYNESS
TO BECOME STRONG!


UNDERSTAND WORLD DIFFERENCE IS ALL AROUND YOU
BUT WE DON'T SHOW IT
BECAUSE WE KNOW WE WILL BE JUDGED
BY THE STUPIDITY OF OTHERS COMMENTS!



Thursday 19 December 2013

The Dark, The voices. Tainted

Where am I
This cold dark place
That Inprisons me so deep inside
Where is the window, with sun leaking in
Where is the door that can let me free at last

Do they exist, are they real
The voices inside my head
Will they drive me insane or just kill me instead

Where is my knight in shining armor
The one who will save me
The one who will hold me

Does he even exsit
Or is he a mith
Like everything I see

There is no world
No life, No Soul, Nothing
Just the emptyness
Of the dark place I dwell

Nothing will come and save me
From the monster inside
Nothing will help me to
Get rid of that man

The one so deep, so lost
The one so cold and empty
It makes your skin crawl
He is everywhere, All around

Like there is no escape
Your always bathing in mud
His touch never fades
Never leaves
Can't be washed away

He is the burden you must carry
The unforgettful memory
Of torcher and pain
The thing that makes you dirty

Your are covered in mud
Covered in lies
Covered in pain
You are tainted
You can't be loved

The voices scream inside your head
Slowly driving you mad
The voices don't lie
They are true
You are a tainted soul
Destined to be alone

Thursday 5 December 2013

The Dream of Reality

I close my eye's and dream
of something that was once real
and something that is not

The dream is frightening and sad
I can't breath and I can't see
I hear myself talk like I'm there
but I'm not

Why am I crying so loud
Why Can't I see the reason
Why am in this dream
Why so much pain

I don't want to be there
I want to be out 
I scream and yell
but nobody hear's

Then I wake up all alone
Crying to a world 
I know I'm not part of

I had the Dream Of Reality