Injected

Injected with lies

Injected with pain

I close my eyes

And i shall sleep

No more pain

No more tears

Just silence and emptiness

I'm sorry

I gave my all

I gave my heart 

Too many times 

To break

I have nothing left

Not even a heart

For even that has grown

So cold

My skin burns

From my nails embedded 

My eyes they sting from 

The makeup running

I'm a monster

I ruin the things i love

It's my fault

Im sorry

I love you, but i was

Injected by Gods lies

God he hates me

God he laughs

God I'm done believing

God your nothing to me

God you lie

I prayed every night

On my knees, in tears 

The moment when the pain

Was too much

I prayed when happy

But you laughed at me

Cuz i mean nothing

I am nothing

But i joke

Inject me already

Let me lie to sleep

My eyes to never wake

It hurts again

I laugh silently 

In the darknes

Cuz my pain

It is so fucking funny

Ending Is Near!

Crying tears of black

Crying tears of pain

Broken pieces of my heart

Slowly shattering

The tears have made a somg

That only i can hear

It's The song of broken soul

That cannot be repaired

My faith is gone

I have no hope

Life may go on

But i am nothing but a joke

100 emotions i will show

Each a mask of my true emotion

For emptiness is what i

Feel

I close my eyes and see

Beautiful,  Angel wings flying

One by one their wings are torn

Left to bleed and slowly

Turn blaxk

Tainted and empty

Like the wings on my black

Darkness is my solitude

Pain is my guest

Laughter is my cover up

Silence is my friend

The voices in my head grow louder

As they try to get close the door

That big black door leading

To the evil hidden within

"Im almost there, almost out beware i shall consume you". She whispers like the darkness herself

Red eyes of blood

Gray hair like grey cloud

Face like porcelain

Heart as cold as ice

Evil, pure evil

Her door is slowly opening

Her evil slipping threw the cracks

Seeping through my heart

She'll take over once again

And there will be no coming back

Cause one she consuming me

I cannot fight it

For she is the monster within

Bound by chains

About to break

And reak havoc once again

Why?

What did i do to deserve

Your betrayal

What did i do to deserve

The pain

Your promises and your words

Held such hope and such devotion

You wanted to prove something i was

ready to stop believing in

But in the end

Your walked away

Like so many before

Shattering my heart with

Your fingertips

A toy I am in God's game

He sends me into happiness

And rips me out with broken wings

I gave my last bit of hope to him, to the guy

With such kindnes

But he tore me apart again

What did i do to deserve this?

Is this my punishment

What did i do to deserve this?

Did i do something wrong

I drop to my knees and pray

God please tell me what i did?

Tears rolling down my chin

This pain is far too much

I know life isnt easy

I know there will be horror

But why is my life so bad?

Why did i have to go through all of this?!

Why did i have to gain the nightmares

Why did i have to gain the depression

That makes me fit soooo many guys standards

I scream to the sky

God please fucking tell me why?

What the hell am i doing?

Fucking tell me please!

I don't understand nothing

My heart is shattered 

My hope is thin

My trust is hopeless

My pain is never ending

God why?

Why?

Why?

I'm scared of everything

My tears, fall silently as i rap myself in a ball

Crying and crying

Until I black out

God why?

Why me?
What did i do wrong?
Why do you hate me?

My voice beggs for a answer
But no reply

I'm left alone in the silence of the night

Gosh

Touch me, Touch my body
Love me sweetly 

Make me shiver

Make me whimper for more

Your touch like fire

Igniting my system

Your kisses like electricity

Frying my viens

Your rough, soft hands

Going into places beyond

My voice growing louder

My body growing hot

I want you 

In ways i never wanted anybody

I need you

In ways i'll never understand

Please drive me insane

Please make me crazy

I need more

God i want more

I love it

The things you do

Driving me insane

Damn it

Your touch is my drug

Your love is my insanity

Take off your clothes baby

Cuz tonight were having fun

Her

Sirens Blarring

They are coming

For me, For you

For Her

The deep dear darkness

Bleeding within

Her blood shot eyes

Her screams 

Her cries

She's a murderer

She laughs at you

Broken hearts

Beating hearts

Ripped from your chest

Her fun, her lies

The devil in disguise

So innocent, So beautiful

So deadly