Let the darkness takeover my soul

What did I do

To you

To make you leave me

All alone inside 

The darkness of my own thoughts

I've been taken over by

The nightmare's inside my head

That make me afraid

To breath, to live

Each night get's harder

If I see your face, I'll crack

Why did you leave

When you were all I had

My trust is running thin

My mind going black

My heart cold as ice

Red is all I see

Danger

Help but no words come out

Scream but nobody hears

Crying but it's silent tears

Emptiness is all I feel

What Did it mean

When you said 'I love you'

Was it a lie, A simple trick to 

Win my heart

Was it all I lie

Your stupid, because I will

Never allow my heart to open

Never allow anybody to get to close

For I gave my heart

To you

Just to watch myself fall apart

When you left

I give up, the darkness can eat my soul

I give in, the monsters can have control

I can't anymore, the pain is just to much

I don't want to continue living somewhere

I just do not belong

Thank's for leaving

Your promises meant nothing

Tears are all I have know

Pain is all I know

I hate you

But even I know that's a lie

I love you

But It's better to lie

Than to eternally suffer

Knowing I was tricked

Again

Broken Me...

Slowly dying 

Nothing left

Empty and Lonely 

We Forget

Pain is All I feel

Because I am the wounded

The broken

The tainted, Tainted by something

I never had control of

I wish to erase the dark dirt

That has clouded my skin

Un-washable,  never to disappear

I want time to erase

My existence

I can't feel my heart it's cold

Love it died a long time ago

Blood I need more to fall

Laughter, was it ever real

Tear. I shed to many

Pain I feel it so much

What's the difference?

Do you understand I died

That innocent little girl

That never understood

The meaning of being

'Different'

I broke

I am nothing, a shell of who I once was

What do you see

When you look at me

Do you see?

Beauty?

Light?

Happiness?

Laughter?

Shyness?

Lies!

I filled your head with lies

I am nothing like that

Everything you see is the mask

I show to prove

I am okay

I am fine

That I am not broken

But inside

I am crying, I cut

I scream, I wish

I need, I crave

I break, I shake

I fear, I hate love

Because I am the broken

Little girl who was two 

Stupid

To understand the meaning behind

A favour

To blinded to realize

What HE really meant

To be tainted by his hands

It ways I can never forget

Happy I kept my virginity

Even tho my innocence 

is gone

Disgusted

Dirty

Tainted

Pained

Broken

Burden

Die

Die 

Die

I wish for it, but cannot have it

I need it, but will not achieve it

Because I am worthless

I am broken, simply Broken

Isn't it funny

I am the broken little girl

I will always be

The worthless broken

Empty

Useless

No man, nobody

Wants a broken me

I am a nobody

I am broken

Even the mirror cracks

Because I am

WORTHLESS!!!!!

Fear, That man

I'm not okay

I finally admit to it

I cannot sleep at night with

Waking in tears and sweat

Fear written on my face

Is he there inside my room

Ready to take advantage

Of me once again

To make me fear the darkness

Even more

Realization as he is not there

He cannot hurt me anymore

But fear has overwhelmed me 

taken me hostage

I don't know what to do anymore 

So I slide the blade carefully

over my wrist and watch the blood slowly

bubbly before sliding down my 

Arm dripping 

Red like hell

Pain and fear

Is all I feel when memories

Take over my mind

He is the source of my 

Suffering

The reason I continue to 

Die slowly inside

Freedom come with a price

But I will not give it

I will not give the one thing I treasure

To the man I fear the most

I will continue to suffer

At the hands of the memories

Even tho he's no where near me

The fear is tatoo'd to my skin

Like a reminder

I will never be loved

Nobody will ever care

I am alone

I am weak

I am a looser

So let me die already

Because I do not belong in this world

Because the fear of that

Man

Is it simple or Just a waste

It's so easy to act like were okay

To simply say 'I'm fine'

Nobody truly hears the questioning of

One's continence

The moment's when we fight

With the part of ourselves

That denies every feeling okay

When was that again

Do you remember the moment

When you cared?

When you were truly happy?

When betrayal wasn't real

And love was a dream

Do you understand that we 

Can never be fine

Because we constantly feel threatened

By jealousy and Self infatuation

We care about 

appearance instead of personality 

Money instead of Love

Popularity instead of Invisibility

We find the easy way out instead 

Of confronting the demons inside or

Heads that seems to tell us

The things we don't want to hear

But one day we will crumble

Because of the stupidity

Of not confronting the demons

That are inside our hearts