Nothing!

It is over, Everything I have kept 

Everything I tried to protect

I'm afraid of it

I'm afraid of loosing

I've smiled when I've wanted to cry

I've hated when I really loved

I've hid my feelings from the world

I've hid my darkness

I'm so tired of trying

Of wanting somebody to want me

Stop hurting me

Stop saying I'm worthless

I don't want to hear it

I can't breath anymore if you 

Keep wanting me to die

Is it funny when I get mad

Is it something to bring up 

When I do something different

I hate your words

It's killing me

But Nobody see's the pain

I feel inside

Nobody see's the darkness surrounding my heart

Nobody wants me, Nobody can love me

Should I disappear

Your words and your faces

Made it obvious

I should

Because I truly have nothing!

A Coffin, A Girl And Bullies

A room surrounded in roses

Chairs lined up perfectly 

People with black and crying faces

A funeral

The pain is upsetting

Can you walk up and see 

The girl in the coffin

Is me

My skin is pale

My heart has stopped

On my wrists

Are red, Stained with blood

I've lost the meaning of life

Lost the Light inside of me

Do you care?

You never tried to save me

Jokes and laughter

Words and stares

Nobody stood and stopped

Them from making fun of

Who I am

The Pain grew stronger

My choices became weaker

And I plunged into the darkness

I grabbed the Knife

Of freedom

And stained my wrists

With my tainted Blood

Do you like the dream

I showed you

The things that could happen

When you close your eyes

The pain you cause

People around 

Look up and look around

See the heads looking down

The tears that are stained to their cheeks

The scars tattooed to their wrists

Have you opened your eyes and realized

You are the ones who put it there

You are the demons 

That we fight in our sleep

Bullies are what we call you

Cold, Lonely!

At the bottom of the lake

So dark and cold

I look to the surface,Where the sun glows

Is it warm up there

I reach my hand as far as I can

Will you grab it and pull

Me out of my nightmare

Or will you walk away

I'm in the dark all alone

You never ask if I'm alright

You never ask if I cry

I need HELP!

I'm so ugly 

So Untouchable

I can't even be loved anymore

My pain like knives in 

My heart

I scream can you hear

Me

I'm reaching for your face

Do you see my tears

I'm invisible to you

Do you want me

Can you kiss me

Can you accept me

I can barely breath anymore

My Heart is freezing

Will you watch me 

Lay Down in a coffin

And close it to the world

Will you cry 

Will you love me then

I can't wait for the Impossible

I can't wait for fake promises

I'm done waiting

Find me or loose me

Choose your life

Goodbye Dear Friend

As I slowly fall apart

Piece by piece by body goes numb

My brain starts racing

Trying to find the nearest escape

To be free

The darkness crumbles in

My breath slowly ends

The laughter behind me grows

Your touch becomes invisible

I'm alone

The warmth of your friendship

Is coming to a end

Your leaving me, as your life goes on

I'm loosing control

Of Who I Am

Stop running to my rescue

Stop helping me from my knee's

Let me beg for forgiveness

For all my terrible sins

For Nobody can save me now

I've lost it all, My future has been smashed

Like the mirror of my soul

The face you see in the mirror

Is gone, She has left 

Walked away from the world

Who has left her to fight alone

She drops to her knees

Tears streaming from her cheeks 

Red as blood

She looks to you, eyes as cold as ice
 and says

"Goodbye My Dear Friend"

"For this is the end of Us"

What Should I do?

Steady, Stay still and

Walk down that invisible 

Line

But i continue to fall

And fail

Loosing it all, just for something

I can't erase 

My mind, My heart

As black as the night sky

Without no stars to guide

Me 

Slowly drowning in the pain

I've gained

My tears forming a lake

Should I jump in

I'm done with all of

This

continuing with all this mud

on my skin

Eyes that seem to see through

All the mistakes I've made

Nobody wants me

When I don't even want myself

Forced to live in a world

I never belonged in

Even if I keep living

What should I do?

To keep surviving

When everything I fought for

Has come tumbling down to 

Crush me 

The weight of all the pain 

And memories

I want to forget everything

Or I'll end it all

I can't take it anymore