Monsters And Secrets

Running from the monster

That will eat you while you sleep

Devouring our hopes and dreams

And leaving us with nightmares

Screaming with our lungs 

Crying with our eyes

We don't want to see 

The memories we ran 

From

The monsters make us weak

The voices make us crazy 

The hands make us 

Untouchable

We want yo speak to spread

The truth behind the nightmares

We do not want pity

The stares, The reactions

It's scary, we want to run

We fear, the judge-mental words

We hate the way they look at us 

When they want to say those

words we hate the most

They wont't want us 

They won't need us

They'll constantly judge us, watch us

Avoiding the subject like it might

Hurt us

I will not tell my secret

Of being handled like a toy

By a man who was a monster

Who I hate with my being

The one who tainted me with wrinkled hands

But that's a secret I will never te;;

For I do not deserve freedom

I'm a broken little girl

In a big girls body

Who stop believing in love and fairy tales

Because they don't exist 

You loved me, lied and Now I dream.

I told you a secret, you held me

in you arms 

I told you a lie and you looked deep,

inside my eyes and knew the truth

When I screamed for help

You heard

When I cried all alone you  took

my hand and let me breath

Your Kisses gave me life

Your hugs gave me reason

And you life was my purpose

Without you I had nothing 

You whispered those kind words

I never thought I could hear

You said you love, and for one I 

felt happiness

But then life got rough for you, and you

ran away from me

Your eyes that once held glory and light, slowly

Turned dark with hatred

You walked and never looked back

I pleaded for a explanation, a reason why

but none never came

I sat in disgrace, I felt the hate, 

The regret and pain

I couldn't understand why, you left

All I wanted was your love again

Out you looked away

I begged you not to leave me

But you laughed in my face

I cried myself to sleep and cut

The wrists I promised I never 

Would but Like the promises you broke

I broke mine

I had nothing to begin with, But

Then you gave me hope, And as a broken heart

You ripped it all away

And now I have nothing, But a tainted heart and Wrists

Memories that leave me crying,

And Pain that leaves me dying

The love I felt is so real, But

I cut to numb the pain, I look in the mirror in hatred

Knowing it's never good enough

The demons inside my head, Criticize me in every way

They tear apart my insides, And make me all alone

But nobody hears my silent screams

My cries for help all the time

Each cut I do, I let it Heal so

Nobody see's the pain I inflict 

But I am nothing but a broken soul

Wishing for you but to never have

I want love again but know it will never be

Love, Acceptance it's just a dream

And dreams never become reality