Broken

I made a mistake, something I wish

Could be erased

Every night a constant reminder

Of the stupidity of my own innocence

A tear slowly falling from my eye

As I look at myself in the mirror

Ugly, Tainted, Broken

That's all I see

Breaking down every time

I am Reminded

Restoring to the blood that drips

Down the wrists, I promised never to do

Empty promises as people leave

Nothing left, Why should I stay?

My heart is cold, Where is the love?

I'm alone, I'm scared

Stupidity, I was stupid

Why couldn't I read the lines

That man gave me that day

The day he asked for a favour

Who knew it'd make me dirty

How many times will I cry

How many times will the nightmares haunt me

Until I cannot take it any more

Broken is who I am

Broken is who I'll always be

Something shattered cannot be repaired

My heart lye's in pieces

Once whole but now nothing

I'm nothing but a shell

Of who I use to be

Kill me please, Let me die

I'm so tired of waking up and realizing

There's nothing for me here

The man I love left me

The pain and insanity stronger each day

I'm broken and broken is who i'll always be

My Unique Knight

No matter how much it hurts 
Knowing you walked away and left
Leaving your promises on your fingertips
Shattered like the heart inside my chest

The tear are never enough to show my pain 
The sleepless night as I wish for your embrace
The moments I wish to be consumed by darkness
But Know it would never bring you back
You caused me pain, But I forgive you 
Even though you said it was okay for me not to
But my love for you will never fade, its stuck to me like glue
Even if I date many, nobody can compare to you

Your love was unique and special, like the
Sunrise in the morning, ever colour describing something
Different, like a new chapter to a great book

Nothing could make me hate you, no matter if you left
I'll spend my life wishing for you, but I'll never hold regret
The moments shared with you are my treasures
That I could describe so easily

You were my knight in shining armour, that will never change
Even if our life goings on and you forget
My love for you will always be strong
No man's love could ever be the same

So I bid you farewell on your journey
And I'm sorry I was not the one
But I will say, you'll always be my only

My unique knight, I will alway love you 

Finally

A cold dark emptiness, nothing inside

You can't be saved, from the horrible pain

Of loosing your mind in hatred

Not knowing what to think any more

Tears forming a small lake
So dark, So empty
Like the very pits of my soul
Darkness is who I am

The voices, They are my friends
The nightmares are my wishes
I can't wait to accept it
And die In peace

No more love
No more tears
No more Pain
Just silence

The world is just a pit of emptiness
Waiting slowly to swallow me up
Take me over and end my life
The darkness of life hates me

I am one with darkness
I don't feel it any more
No useless pity of emotion
I'm finally hollow now

I GIVE IN

I can't , It's too much

It hurts, My heart keeps breaking

Why? What's wrong with me

My life it's empty

Promises that are always broken

Wishes that never come true

Love that always ends

To much

To much pain

My mind is slowly slipping

My heart already gave up

The voices in my head

They just keep getting

Louder

I'm just broken, slowly slipping away

What is reality

I'm scared, I'm alone

I can't keep hurting

The images in my head

Slowly getting brighter

Making me weaker and sad

I want to end it all

Suicide can I do it

Can I finally embrace the darkness

Will it work,  will I finally die

Will I stop hurting

Will the voices stop

Will the nightmares go away

Will all my pain just disappear

I can't no more there's nothing left

I have NOTHING

I am a NOBODY

I can't be LOVED

I can't keep HURTING 

I give UP!

I'm sorry for ever thinking that

Me 

Could ever be happy

It doesn't exist

I give in

This Is The End

The dark Chilly morning as I realise again

Your gone from my site, gone from my heart

Like a emptiness that cannot be replaced

You walked away from me

Tears fall from my eyes

Wet and sticky tears like the blood

In my nightmares, I cannot breath

I scream your name over and over

Praying on my knees you'll answer

But silence is what I receive

I deafening eternity 

Buckets and buckets of water slowly

Fill in the tub, burning hot

Scorching my flesh making me scream in agony

As I sit inside the water 

I cry again and scream

I take the razer of hope, the only way 

For you to hear me, I lay it on my wrists

And watch the water turn red

My skin burns from contact 

But the pain feels amazing

He's not coming back The voices whisper

He doesn't love you any more They yell

Your weak... SHUT UP!

A looser....BE QUITE!

He hates you...NO!

He can't stand you....PLEASE SHUT UP

A burden......I CAN'T!

He'll never love you again....IT'S OVER!

Louder and louder, They pound in my head

Spinning and spinning,  My mind turns to goo

My blood is spilling there's nothing I can do

The world seems empty as My heart slowly beets

I lie back in the water and closed my eyes to peace

I will not continue living without Him by my side

So goodbye My dear world

For I'm Sorry

This is the end