Shouldn't of existed

If I could erase the feeling of your skin

The taste of your lips

the way your eyes burn into mine

and the feeling of your chest beating against mine

If evey night I lay alone 

I could erase the memory of you being beside me

Every night until I close my eyes

I would

If my heart did numb in my chest

at the sound of your name

and my soul crush slowly with the feeling of

your lips on my neck

maybe I'd be okay

If I could forget your existence just for a second

Forget that we breath the same air

and walk down on the same earth

maybe my lungs wouldn't feel like they were gonna burst

If just for a minute I could go back and time

and take all the memories  you have given me

and burn them in a flame as big as the sky

I would

Because my love for you was like a diamond

I uncovered it when it looked like a rock

I polished it and made it look beautiful

but you threw it away like it wasn't 

worth enough

But now I cannot breath like I use too

now my heart is numb

my emotions are chaotic

but I will be alright

Because my acting

has grown beautifully

and my sin has became enchanting

I have learned to turn off

my everything

because of a love

that never should've existed