The Gate Of Knowing Is Closed

Where does life begin

Where does life end

How do we truly know what to do

when the curtains close and the play's over

 

How do we smile when, we are lost

When we open our eyes and realize we don't know

Who we are

Who we were or

Why we exist

 

The gate of knowing everything is closed

Of helpful memories and truth

It closed to help us know the truth

to find the truth inside

 

But how do we find the thing we never had

the truth has always been a lie

a small thing we told to keep us in line

 

To show ourselves we are rulers

but the lies are back and so are our demons

we are not alone anymore

Our demons have come to collect

 

To take back everything we knew and believed

and turn them into dust

To make us lost and empty

To lock out the pain and envy

The tears and torcher

 

So we don't know who we are

or what we are suppose to do

We are to scared to live anymore not knowing

Not being able to think or smile

 

 

What do we do when we lost ourselves behind

the gate of Knowing

The Wolf inside ourself

The night screamed at her like a howling wolf, waiting for something

to grab her and change her, shake her and she'd wake up

The blood and darkness she was sitting in

The pain and envy

Were they a dream or truly reality

Her bones quivered and her heart froze

nowhere to go, cornered by the savage dog ready to pounce

at it restless prey, the wolves eyes so cold and empty

Lustful and hungry, ready to devour her

Was this her end, to die by the wolves darkness

To be shredded and placed into his stomach

 Will she be free, safe inside the wolf

she is scared and then she collapsed, ready to meet her death,

but the wolf stopped an looked her in the eyes

with such pain and sadness, showing the girl
The thing she needed most, her purpose

The angry wolf she once saw slowly disappear along with the pain
She once felt
She was not alone
She was not scared

She will live and be strong, to show the wolf that she is something
and they can't hurt her any more

She closed her eyes and the wolf was completely gone
it was her she saw that night
She was chased by her own demon and was saved

Loving in Pain

Is It worth it all the pain, to feel empty and sad
But not know what do with it all
The sadness that he brang and left in minutes
The tears left behind when I new he couldn't love me

The things I forgot to say
The emotions I tried to hide
The pain I gain everyday
The emotionless face I wear, to show nothing

I watch him, be with many
Change in every way
Growing every day

He will never Look at me
He will never Love me
He will never Hold me

The darkness in my heart continues to grow
As I slowly disappear,  dyeing inside and crying
But what can I do, He's moved on
He doesn't see my pain and the darkness I have gained

He will never love me even though I'll live through life
Dying inside loving a Boy who could never love me

Life, Known, Seen

What do we do with all those people who don't listen
The People who think we are stupid
That we don't know anything
About life, Love or the future

That we must abide by the rules and follow them
We do learn and we do understand most things
We do understand what love is
But how do we explain it when it can't be explain

if we could tell how we felt, would it be true NO
We have learned because we have lived and we have made mistakes
Even if people don't know what we've done

We all have a deep dark secret maybe two that we can't tell
But that doesn't mean we don't know how cruel life can be
Some of us may not have felt the same pain as others
But we've seen it happen and know better

We may be young but we ain't weak, we have learned about
Life as we lived it, we've watched it and we understand it
So why criticize us when we understand a lot more than we have told the world

We have grown without your protection, We have Known without your supervision
and we have seen without your eyes.

We Know, Understand and will over the years so why do you still worry
It's still a mystery to us

The World and Destiny

The darkness of the night embraced her light death
as she stumbled slowly toward her destiny,
Eyes stained in tears and clothes stained in blood

Why did she need this feeling of accomplishment
The feeling to be able to looking the mirror and accept yourself
To feel wanted by all those shadows that told you otherwise
To fill that void in our hearts

Why does the darkness rip at us
Tearing our hearts and dreams apart
releasing the pain and the envy
the emotions we try so hard to forget

The world is too cruel, it doesn't accept who we really are
It judges us for or personality, our character and our Attitude
The world thinks that we must abide  by their rules be their, puppets and do their bidding
We must wear their choices, say their wisdom and learn to be perfect

But nobody's destiny is perfect, its torn, crumbled, changed, shattered
Nobody knows who'll they'll become before they know who they are
We must keep seeking our true selves before the world destroys our destiny

Darkness devoures false truthes

The ending of time

wasted on a lying truth

wanting this thought that is,

so real it calls the darkness faster

than ever, that little hope and truth

that love can be receved and accepted.

 

But the beginning of a new dawn

is approaching and it will

bring hardships and tumbles no matter

if you advoid them, cause love isn't

a coupon, you can't but one and get it free

but you can earn it if the darknes doesn't

swallow it first

 

That glowing red light in our soul

that links us to the world

we are still empty

without the missing piece of our soul

that we share with them,

 

The darkness flies high in the night sky

whispering the dying words

then you soul is devoured along with

the love you tried to hide

 

Don't hold on to false truthes

cause the darkness an

you will be its next victim

 

 



Why do u try when i can't ever understand

At first you smile and laugh
You say you love me
Then you yell and tell me painful words
but hug me when it's over
because you regret your words

Why can't you understand that
all the words you say grab me
Like a thick smoke

It chokes me and I can't breath
Then hands grab me dragging me
down were I hear the words echo

They tear my skin apart and I feel my blood
flow I begin  to hate myself

But I can never find myself beyond the evil
words
Why do you say I'm beautiful when I know I'm ugly
Why do u love me when I can't love you
I want to understand but I'm so lost in the words
My heart has finally died inside

I'm scared to love but I crave it so bad but
With these words and promises I'll die before it happens

The black smoke follows me where I go and I can
escape those black hands and the repeating words
I am truly alone