WHAT DO YOU KNOW!

A dark sadness that never goes away

A empty box of thing that disapeared

A forgetten memory that you can never remember

A tear that slowly stains your cheeks

Is it okay to cry all alone

In your own little wall of protection

To feel safe in the emptyness of your own thoughts

To hear the screams of your heart echo

But to be silenced by the shadows

Is it fine to have everything eaten away

to have something so important taken away

To never be the same

To be distant, forgotten or judged

Because your different

Does the pain feel good

Does the emptyness satisfy you

Does it feel good to never be remembered

Does it seem nice to be a shadow

Do you accept it

Or do you want freedom

Friends to rely on

Memories to share

Happiness to give and collect

What do you want?

Why are you sad

Why are you afraid

Why do you cry

Are these question mean

Is it scary to admit

That there are secrets many don't know

Things that make you tainted or empty

Make you different but no nobody notices

Does it hurt?

It hurts me because I know how you feel

To be forgotten

To be lost

To cry

To be afraid

To give up

To always want more but to always have nothing

Parents ignore you

or

They think they understand

or

They thing your a troubled child

Or

Going through a faze

But WE ARE DIFFERENT!

WE have been through things THEY don't UNDERSTAND

WE HAVE FELT PAIN

WE HAVE FELT FEAR

WE HAVE CRIED

WE HAVE LIED

WE HAVE PRETENDED

WE HAVE LEARNED

WHEN WILL THEY LEARN

THAT WE HAVE CHOICES

THAT WE HAVE TO MAKE

WE ARE NOT ALONE

WE KNOW THAT

BUT IT FEELS GOOD TO BE ALONE

WE NEED THE LONELYNESS

TO BECOME STRONG!

UNDERSTAND WORLD DIFFERENCE IS ALL AROUND YOU

BUT WE DON'T SHOW IT

BECAUSE WE KNOW WE WILL BE JUDGED

BY THE STUPIDITY OF OTHERS COMMENTS!



The Dark, The voices. Tainted

Where am I

This cold dark place

That Inprisons me so deep inside

Where is the window, with sun leaking in

Where is the door that can let me free at last

Do they exist, are they real

The voices inside my head

Will they drive me insane or just kill me instead

Where is my knight in shining armor

The one who will save me

The one who will hold me

Does he even exsit

Or is he a mith

Like everything I see

There is no world

No life, No Soul, Nothing

Just the emptyness

Of the dark place I dwell

Nothing will come and save me

From the monster inside

Nothing will help me to

Get rid of that man

The one so deep, so lost

The one so cold and empty

It makes your skin crawl

He is everywhere, All around

Like there is no escape

Your always bathing in mud

His touch never fades

Never leaves

Can't be washed away

He is the burden you must carry

The unforgettful memory

Of torcher and pain

The thing that makes you dirty

Your are covered in mud

Covered in lies

Covered in pain

You are tainted

You can't be loved

The voices scream inside your head

Slowly driving you mad

The voices don't lie

They are true

You are a tainted soul

Destined to be alone

The Dream of Reality

I close my eye's and dream

of something that was once real

and something that is not

The dream is frightening and sad

I can't breath and I can't see

I hear myself talk like I'm there

but I'm not

Why am I crying so loud

Why Can't I see the reason

Why am in this dream

Why so much pain

I don't want to be there

I want to be out 

I scream and yell

but nobody hear's

Then I wake up all alone

Crying to a world 

I know I'm not part of

I had the Dream Of Reality

The Light,Misery and Pain

Where is the light, that helps us live

The light that keeps us going

No matter how hard it gets

 

 

I smile to show I'm happy

But inside I'm a mess

I don't know what to live for

Or what to keep doing

 

The light that shined so brightly

Is now dead and gone inside

I have no reason, no purpose

 

 

So why do I keep living a lie

Always telling myself I'm alright

That I can keep my problems to myself

 

I want to be free from my imprisoned life

Where I have no choice

No future

 

Where I'm to scared to love and be loved

Why do I have to suffer

A life of pain and misery

 

All I want to be is free

Will that ever be true

The Dungeon

The dark black Dungeon 

Cold, Wet, Empty

Where am I, Why am I here

Is This my punishment for living

For believing we all had a choice

I still hear the screams, the cry's

Like someone was in pain

That nobody knew what was going on

They were yelling at her, she was yelling at them

They said she couldn't go

She said she could if she wanted

They said, if shge did

She didn't matter to them anymore

She asked them why they couldn't accept her

They laughed and said

You're a freak, an Outcast

Where would you ever belong

She thought she had a choice to leave

To be free, To finally be accepted

But they new life became old

They already knew everything about her

Her life

Her darkness

Her Pain

And The one secret she never told

They judged her and made fun of her

Told her lies and stabbed her in the back

She couldn't take the pain of all the hatred

She wanted to leave it all behind

So she took her own life

And she woke up in the dungeon

A voice echoed in the hallway

"WELCOME TO HELL"



The Gate Of Knowing Is Closed

Where does life begin

Where does life end

How do we truly know what to do

when the curtains close and the play's over

 

How do we smile when, we are lost

When we open our eyes and realize we don't know

Who we are

Who we were or

Why we exist

 

The gate of knowing everything is closed

Of helpful memories and truth

It closed to help us know the truth

to find the truth inside

 

But how do we find the thing we never had

the truth has always been a lie

a small thing we told to keep us in line

 

To show ourselves we are rulers

but the lies are back and so are our demons

we are not alone anymore

Our demons have come to collect

 

To take back everything we knew and believed

and turn them into dust

To make us lost and empty

To lock out the pain and envy

The tears and torcher

 

So we don't know who we are

or what we are suppose to do

We are to scared to live anymore not knowing

Not being able to think or smile

 

 

What do we do when we lost ourselves behind

the gate of Knowing

The Wolf inside ourself

The night screamed at her like a howling wolf, waiting for something

to grab her and change her, shake her and she'd wake up

The blood and darkness she was sitting in

The pain and envy

Were they a dream or truly reality

Her bones quivered and her heart froze

nowhere to go, cornered by the savage dog ready to pounce

at it restless prey, the wolves eyes so cold and empty

Lustful and hungry, ready to devour her

Was this her end, to die by the wolves darkness

To be shredded and placed into his stomach

 Will she be free, safe inside the wolf

she is scared and then she collapsed, ready to meet her death,

but the wolf stopped an looked her in the eyes

with such pain and sadness, showing the girl
The thing she needed most, her purpose

The angry wolf she once saw slowly disappear along with the pain
She once felt
She was not alone
She was not scared

She will live and be strong, to show the wolf that she is something
and they can't hurt her any more

She closed her eyes and the wolf was completely gone
it was her she saw that night
She was chased by her own demon and was saved